Liverpool sold Torres. I need .gif therapy.

I was just minding my own business, looking through football news, when I first saw the transfer rumor of Torres going to Chelsea.

Then I thought they have been saying this forever, and he has never left. This is all just stupid rumors.

But I started noticing more and more credible sites were posting the news.

THEN, on the official LFC site, they stated that Chelsea put up a bid of 35m pounds, but LFC turned it down.

but I thought, nahhhh, TORRES IS A RED. HIS ARMBAND PROVED IT. HE'S HERE FOREVAAAAAAAAAAH. CHELSEA IS WASTING THEIR TIME!

But later that night it was officially announced that Liverpool would be willing to sell Torres for 50m pounds. I was still hopeful that the transfer window would close, and Chelsea wouldn't be able to agree to 50m pounds. still, it was stressful

AND THEN THIS MORNING IT WAS ANNOUNCED THAT TORRES IS TRANSFERRING TO CHELSEA.

Torres, cont.

Torres

LIVERPOOL, England - Fernando Torres has told Liverpool to sit down and negotiate with Chelsea, having reached the point at which he believes that a departure from Anfield is now the right move for his career. With four days of the winter transfer window remaining the striker is aware that time is running out but he does not want to miss out on the opportunity to join Chelsea for a second time. He has urged the Fenway Sports Group to broker an agreement that is good for both player and club.

UGH. WHY DOES THE UNIVERSE HATE ME?

LSKDJFSLDJFSLDJF

I just watched the most recent episode of probably one of my favorite shows, Southland. AND THEY KILLED OFF A MAIN CHARACTER. ONE OF MY FAVORITE MAIN CHARACTERS. I CANNOT DEAL. WHAT IS LIFE. MY EMOTIONS ONLY ARE CONTAINED WITHIN RAGE AND GRIEF.

The State of the Union

I love our president.

To ease the angst-bomb...

=D I love this.

Harshness of Reality

Okay, so that is sort of a melodramatic title for this post, I'll admit. In this case, the harshness of reality is that my closet is too small for my materialistic desires. I'll admit the other harsh realities are less melodramatic, although I can't promise they aren't less materialistic.

I really just wish that my life would get moving. I feel like I am at a stand still, waiting for life to happen. But that is how I have felt for a long time. And maybe it is just because I still don't identify myself as an adult, but once I realize that there are plenty of MUCH MORE responsible and adult-like 20 year olds, it makes me think that I need to stop dragging my feet about life. And this isn't really about feeling like an adult. It is more about feeling like I am stuck in one place, and one time I am going to wake up and realize it is my fault. Which it is/would be. And I am trying to change this. But at the same time I also feel like there are certain things that are not within my control. (more or less, a boyfriend, a social circle. okay, so these things are SORT of in my control. but it isn't like I can snap my fingers and all of a sudden the cute guy in my class notices me, or like I can snap my fingers and have friends that aren't just friends because we have a class project together. it is easy for some people, but not me.)

It is not that I don't know these things aren't obtainable (whoa, triple negative), but that I just wish they would stop taking their sweet time. And I know that it takes a lot of effort and focus on my part in order to get my life to the point that I want it to, but it also feels like that would take a lot of risk and money and it won't even end up being exactly what I imagined in the first place. Okay so I lied about the other realities not being melodramatic. Uh, sorry.

Anyway, I also just want all my dreams to come true, and I know that only very, very, very lucky people get that. Or maybe just people who aren't idealist-bordering on perfectionists, and are okay with how things are. But I want my farm house. And I want my cheap cinema. And my cafe. And I want to be in shape and have really awesome clothes and the confidence to pull them off and to not be mistaken for a 16 year old. And I want money and a huge book and music collection, and to actually be motivated to do art regularly and to have direction in life. Mostly I just really want a bigger closet.

Kiki

Sometimes a somewhat aimless chat on MSN messenger can make a mediocre day much better. Thanks Chelsea for being a good friend, even miles away. =)

Ahh

Ticket to Ride, strawberry cake, magnet wars, dry-erase hand/ankle drawings, quick venture outside, and creepy experimental glow-stick pictures. this is a good start to the weekend! I am now looking forward to no first-aid class on Saturday, the Golden Globes on Sunday and no school on Monday!

New Semester

My new semester is:
-Spanish 1010 (I took Spanish in junior high and one semester in high school, but I a) was never really good at it in the first place, b) didn't really even like it in the first place, and c) have forgotton most of it anyway.

-Botany 1203:Plant Biology In high school I took AP Biology, and my favorite part was the very tiny section we studied on botany. I have taken a couple of botany classes so far, but they were more of the big picture, and I'm ready to learn more specific things about plants. I hope there isn't too much chemistry, though! yikes.

-Geography 1000: Natural Environments of Earth. This is the class that I think I won't like so much, but I have been kicking around the idea of a Botany Major, Geography Minor, so this is one of the requirements for both. Meh. Hopefully it will be better than my expectations.

-Recreation 4550:Outdoor Education, this looked interesting. And I think that if I pursue the botany idea, then maybe I could work at someplace like the Nature Center, or something, in which case, it would be good to have a class on teaching in the outdoors. I don't really want to be a teacher, but I think I could do presentations, and I dunno. It seemed fun. Hopefully it is.

-Health 1300: First Aid: Emergency Response. This is a strange sort of class. We only have two classes, both of which take all day. And one is at the very first saturday of the semester and one is at the end. I am assuming we learn what it is all about the first time, study like crazy in between, and then are tested on it the last time. I just figure these are good skills to have, no matter what. Plus, one of my biggest fears is being completely helpless in a situation that is out of my control, when there is something I could have done, if I had only had the knowledge or skill. (Plus, it filled the credits I needed, to be qualified as a full time student, hah)

I've been busy.

Since I last showed those outfits I designed on Polyvore, I've added quite a few. I was going to post them here, but then decided to just give the link, considering my post was about to take up the whole page! I'd really like some feedback, too. Tell me what you think, and which ones are your favorite. Also, if you have any ideas for a new outfit, since most of mine seem to sort of have themes, maybe I'll try to work on it!

Click here for my Polyvore profile.